Interesting

Tonight, in a fit of desperately missing Joshua, I re-read some of our old emails from when we first started dating, long-distance. I wrote this to him almost exactly a year and a half ago:

I want to get married to someone who I love and who shares my heart. I want someone to do life with!

I want a family with a whole lot of kids.

I want to make a home, not an apartment with two roommates.

I want to see the world.

I want to hear people's stories.

I want to form relationships with people and impact them for Christ.

I want to help people who are in need. Physically. Emotionally. Spiritually.

I want to have the knowledge when I wake up in the morning that I am living the life I want. A life of discipleship and hard-core following God. A life of making a difference in other people's lives for the Kingdom of God.

I want to be nomadic.

I want to be exciting!

I want OUT of 8-5 America.

I want OUT of retirement plans and golf course subdivisions.

I want adventure.

I want to serve.

I want these desires to be godly, and not fleshly and self-ambitious.

I want to know what on earth I can do to live out these dreams.

I want to know why God has planted these dreams in my heart if they are not going to come to fruition.

I want to be surrendered to Him no matter what.

I want to KNOW God. So, so desperately.


It's funny, because all of those things are still true. Except now I feel a little bit closer to them being reality.

Guess that's what's the journey is about...