Wedding Week

This is so surreal.

Last night I was lost in the details, typing up instructions for all the people who are helping out on Saturday, but then I got into bed and closed my eyes to go to sleep and it struck me: I can't believe that I am about to get married.

Seriously, I've only been wondering about the man I would marry since I was in middle school. And now, not only do I know him, but the moment is arriving where I will stand up in front of friends and family who love us both dearly and pledge my love, loyalty, and friendship to this man to the death.

I was overwhelmed by the fact that I can't even comprehend the magnitude of this promise, and I was overwhelmed by the desire to grow into it.

Most of all, though, I felt the urgency to be present.... this week, on my wedding day, on my honeymoon. I can so easily get caught up in the details-- the seemingly important but lastingly irrelevant stuff of life that takes up time and energy and focus.

Tonight I took the time away from the to-do list (which is longer than I would like it to be) and I sat down with Joshua and a bowl of ice cream and I just sat with him, enjoying him and giving him my full attention. That is how I want this week to be. There will be people that I dearly love traveling ten hours to witness and celebrate this joining together of me and Joshua, and I want to take the moments to see them.

Really, that is how I want life to be. But I'll fight for it this weekend. I won't rush, I won't let stress take me away mentally from those around me.

And on Saturday I will remember that what matters is that two lives are now becoming one, that I am leaving my parents and clinging to my husband, and that Jesus is weaving an incredible covenant between me, Joshua, and Himself.

Wow. Talk about surreal.

Wowza

I can't believe I'm getting married in a week.

My last week as Megan Coss.

Weird.

Also, my computer screen has started this annoying flickering habit when it is plugged in. Anyone know what that's about?

My parents are buying me and Joshua a wonderful DSLR camera for a wedding present. I can't wait to try it out.

There's so much I can't wait for! But I'm going to try to enjoy this week moment by moment and savor all the precious seconds that I have with Jesus, and my parents, and my friends, and with Joshua. This is when life changes forever. I'm ready to dive in.

Hobbit feet

Today was a gardening day again, after about a week of rain. It was still raining today, but Joshua and I darted out between rain showers until it finally let up for a good period of time and the sun peeked out every now and again. I have been grumbling about the rain for days because we have a clay-based soil and I was pretty certain the pounding of the rain was going to compact all that I had spent hours endlessly raking into one giant hard clod of clay. Much to my surprise, I discovered that the rain had actually helped our soil composition and it was a dream to work in. "Life lessons in the garden" has become a common utterance already... this life lesson was, even when circumstances make you think that God might possibly be flushing your life down the toilet, He really is working things out for the best for you.

I decided to go barefoot in the garden today and the result was feet that resemble Frodo Baggins' very own. Haha-- a funny thought-- I went for about four months without shaving this winter... just think if I hadn't shaved yet I would have definitely been like a hobbit!

Next week is the week of my wedding, how impossible is that to believe. I've only been dreaming of what this day will be like since I was seven.

Can't wait can't wait can't wait.